Dragonfly

A week after a nightmare came upon me, a random dragonfly in its extraordinary size landed on my arm one night. It's as if somebody sat beside me, held my hand and said "everything will going to be alright". As the dragonfly flew off, it felt like it took away all the pieces of my broken heart and the heaviness am feeling started to lighten up. This actually gives me goosebumps but in a positive way. Then I clearly see HOPE, FAITH, TRUST and so then I've decide to move on...

Life may knock us down big time but it depends on whether or not when are we going to get back and stand up again. Each life's trials serves a valuable lesson in the end. It wasn't just put there to make our lives miserable. God always has a reason for everything and we always have to trust His will whatever reason it may take.

A lot of people think I am a strong person. It kind of makes me sad because those people doesn't really know who I am. I may pretend to look strong and throw a poker face but just like any other human beings, I'm also vulnerable and tends to get hurt most of the time. If they only know how weak and scared I can be, they wouldn't dare to be in my situation. I'd like to think of myself more of having an open mind and a positive outlook in life. I believe these assets are the best free weapons we could get along with the prayers to help us easily get through the hardships of life.

Under Renovation

Pardon. My left
 ear itched like that just when I'm about to say cheese!

WHERE THERE IS LOSS, THERE IS ALWAYS A NEW BEGINNING

I would like to start of with a disclaimer: I am not a writer (not even close)! It's the first time I'm writing a blog and my mind are just circling around like a lunatic starving flies about to devour into a feast of shi*s. The fact that my faith has again tested by our Creator, added astronomical disarrays of my every neuron makes it a lot more difficult to focus on. So forgive me if this first (yeah as if there will be a second) blog entry may read as nonsense as Mr. Bean's corniest silent jokes.

As much as I wanted to vent out, to unload this enormous sadness and heaviness from my heart to bring myself up to euphoria doesn't seemed like a very good way to start. Aside from the feeling of relief is quite short and temporary, sad truth is, not everyone would really care and listen to a miserable tales of life. So I might as well trying to be happy or at least pretend to be even though deep down, the excruciating pain of loss is killing me inside. I love to believe that I'm now in the process of moving on (yeah I really loved to believe that!) and looking for reasons as to why certain bad things happens not only once but, twice...

As I began writing this blog, I am also starting a brand new life by looking at it with different perspectives, full of high hopes and with positivity in full circle. So allow me by welcoming myself in and wish me good luck in the world of BLOG. Cheers!

~Chewwie Wowld~

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